Shit happens. I’ve learnt not to discriminate against shit happening, because at least you can tell. You can smell it, you can see it, and generally there is a viable and/or visible reason behind the happening of the shit. Even if you do not know the reason, you probably know someone who can explain why exactly shit has happened.
What I hate is when shit doesn’t happen. When there’s just this slight shift in the fabric of universe, so slight you cannot even be sure it has occurred. There’s no physical evidence, no justification upon which you can claim the shift has happened. You just feel there’s something different in your gut.
I don’t know how to communicate or seek explanations without decent justification and reasonable amount of physical evidence. It would be great if that was due to my penchant for rational approach to life. However, it’s more due to my fear of being considered insane. Going into childhood trauma which brought about this particular personality trait is not something I’m prepared to venture into. I’m just slightly despondent.
All I can do is write a post (in English, to additionally distance myself from the issue) and tag it personal to ensure the least possible number of people read it.
Yes, I have really matured, haven’t I?
RANDOM A/N: I know that “slightly despondent” sounds like an oxymoron, but it’s how I actually feel these days.
1650s, from Greek oxymoron, noun use of neuter of oxymoros (adj.) “pointedly foolish,” from oxys “sharp” + moros “stupid”. Rhetorical figure by which contradictory terms are conjoined so as to give point to the statement or expression; the word itself is an illustration of the thing. Now often used loosely to mean “contradiction in terms.”
Basically the word oxymoron is an oxymoron.
1670s, from Latin despondere “to give up, lose, lose heart, resign, to promise in marriage” (especially in phrase animam despondere, literally “give up one’s soul”), from the sense of a promise to give something away, from de- “away” + spondere “to promise”. A condition more severe than despair.